So, I haven’t written here in long enough that it’s getting harder and harder to ping myself back in. I just don’t know what to write about now thing everything’s changed.
I have medicine – Lamotrigine/Lamictal – that has helped so much that I’m not the same person who wrote in this blog before. I haven’t had a serious issue with depression in over 9 months, I have a boyfriend, I got into University starting September, and I’ve done a little bit of work and I’m looking for something part time whilst I go to Uni.
I have some close friends, and I’ve successfully cut out all the bastards that I didn’t need pulling me down. I don’t drink anymore, except one every now and again, because I don’t like being drunk and out of control. I’m confident, and rarely have any trouble talking to people or dealing with conflict.
People come to me for help, and I enjoy helping them. I’m so much more comfortable in my own skin that the person I used to be is just a distant and unpleasant memory. I don’t like talking about her anymore, which probably has something to do with why I’ve found it difficult to get back to writing here.
I’ve still been writing – I’m currently working on a Mills & Boon style novel. No, not my usual style but I wanted a challenge. It’s at 25k ish atm, so over half way there. I also wrote a 40k Young Adult novel and that puts me at 3 and a half novels completed. It’s good.
I also have an idea for a short story that I want to write, so I shall maybe get around to that soon.
But, with my new found well-ness I’ve also had to sit and think seriously about what I want to do with my whole life. It’s as though I’ve blinked into existance as a 25 year old woman with nothing to show and nowhere to go. I decided that I wanted to stop pretending to be an engineer and get into where my heart really lies – prop and costume making. It’s where I go when I want to escape and I’ve made a little money out of making LARP weapons and props and shields and costume for people whilst I’ve had no other income.
I’m good at it. I know I am. It’s my passion, and I know I can do absolutely anything that I want to. Anything. I’m just able to think outside the box, problem solve, and I have a very good eye for proportion and colour. It comes naturally to me – and on top of that I’ve done a LOT of practise and learning over my life.
So I applied to do a BA at the Royal Conservatoire of Scotland in Production Arts and Design. It’s everything I want. Majoring in props construction, minoring in costume design. I want to work on films and in theatres, I want to show the world how awesome I can make things.
I want to be famous. I’ve always wanted to be famous. Whether I get there because of my writing or because I can make awesome things for films and shows, I don’t really mind – as long as I get to keep doing both of them anyway.
My journey to famedome isn’t probably going to be quick, but I know I can get there. I need a list, though, of things that I can do to help myself along. I’m done with blindly trudging through my life, hoping for something bigger and better. I want to get there on my own.
I have applied to a couple of theatres around Glasgow to go and be involved in the Production side of their shows. I have an interview/audition on the 6th of August to be involved with a show of Aladdin.
I need to-
1. Make a professional website. Currently I have a facebook page, but I don’t feel very professional linking to it as it’s Facebook.
2. Involve myself with as many theatres and productions as I can get involved in to build up my portfolio/experience.
3. Cash in on any contacts I’ve made so far. I’ve asked one of my famous author-buddies if they’d like some props for their Book Festival Show. It’s in a month though, so I’d need to get a move on if he says yes.
I’ve also asked a friend who’s just graduated in script writing and film making to keep me in mind.
I’m also making a set of swords and shields for my Gym, who are running a Gladiator School.
4. Blog more!! One of my other blogs will probably become a dedicated business blog, to talk about methods of making things etc. I think this could give me a new blogging focus. Writing here, Crafting there.
5. Make something impressive and get a photoshoot with one of my friends who is a professional photographer. I started working on an Arcee (Transformers) outfit, but it fizzled out a while ago. I should try and start working on it again.
I’m sure there’s more thing I can do, but I think those are the important ones. For now, I have to go and work on the swords and shields for the gym, another amazing shield like my rose one and some daggers and swords. I also get to have some fun with papier mache in a little while! Something I haven’t done in a long time.
Off to be productive now,